It's also tricky to know the difference between making goals and projecting. One cannot simply sit around and wish for the best and take no action. Also, obsessing about every single detail of events that have yet to happen is detrimental. I have learned that the trick is to set the goals, take all necessary and available steps and then let the outcome go - the outcome is not in our hands. Sounds easy, right? Hahaha, it sure ain't.
Recently I had an amazing audition for a big national commercial for a well known product. It went very well and I received a callback. The night before my callback I decided that I would bring my A game and really show up and be available. I meditated on prosperity that night (certainly, not an everyday practice for me), ate a healthy dinner, went to bed early and got a great night's sleep. The next day I woke up and before I even got out of bed I decided I would have an amazing day and do my best to keep positive. I had a healthy smoothie, exercised, and then went to the callback. I even did a 5 minute meditation in the car before I went in just to center myself and calm my brain.
When I walked into the room the clients and casting people were all very warm and receptive (usually, they act like you are not even present.) I was charming, funny and had the room laughing. I did my absolute best and I left feeling great. As I was walking to the car I decided that no matter what the outcome was that I would be proud of myself for doing all I could do knowing that the rest was out of my hands. It's hard to not think about the money in these situations. National commercials can be big bucks and I'm the type of guy that spends money in my head that I have not even earned yet.
I did not book the job - perhaps they went with a blonde guy, I will never know the real reason. I did my best to not get into a downward spiral of failure and self - judgement. I didn't achieve that 100% but I did maintain a pretty decent level of keeping positive for doing my best. I also realized that I made some great connections at that callback and that in the future I would probably work with those people or, at least, audition for them again. You never know when the results of your actions will take place. Sometimes the things you do set a whole string of events in motion and lead to a place you were not expecting. Things rarely happen in the time that we are expecting but everything always does happen as it was meant to. Another hard lesson to learn. Again, do your absolute best and let go of the outcome.
I have found that a lot of things that were not meant to be in my life have been stripped away this past year. It's as the universe is doing the work that I did not know how to do myself. The main problem that I am having now is that I hear the message loud and clear yet I do not know what is next or which direction I'm to go in. I can blindly jump and hope it's not the precipice of a cliff that I'm teetering over. Perhaps I am just standing on a large rock and the landing will be manageable and relatively painless? Why is it that the most growth comes from experience that are hard and painful? How come all the happy moments in life don't teach us the deepest lessons? I suppose the pain and difficulty we experience make the happy times that much sweeter. If there was no hardship we would never know when we were actually happy - there'd be no gauge to the experience. For now, in this very moment, as I type this everything is actually OK.
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